And so begins “hey future hubby!” “hey future wifey!” I’m so excited!
Not that the ring matters, but isn’t it gorgeous?! It’s way more than I expected! Oh, btw Tumblr. I’m getting married!!!!!!!!
Yesterday was 8 months. It’s amazing how time flies when you’re in love. instagram)
Agh! How did I let this happen!
I started posting stuff on Twitter, but realized this was going to take a lot of tweets. For the past few months, Brian and I have been just barely able to pay the rent. This month, we actually had to sell some things in order to come up with the money.
I’ve been meaning to go in and apply for food benefits, but haven’t until today because for some reason I feel guilty. I don’t know why. I think it’s because I know there are families that are worse off than us. But when he had to borrow money from his mom just so we could eat for the week, I knew I had to do something. So today I went in and asked for help.
I went in last year when I was unemployed and a full time student, and was denied. Apparently if you’re a full time student, you have to be working at least 20 hours a week, whether it is a job or work study. This made no sense to me. Wouldn’t unemployed students be the ones who need the help? Nevertheless, I began searching for a job.
I got the job at Starbucks shortly after, and haven’t felt like I needed help until recently. I know I shouldn’t feel bad about getting assistance, because that’s what it’s there for, but for whatever reason I do. I also think about the fact that I have an iPhone, and feel guilty about that. But almost every one has a cell phone these days, right? We don’t have a house phone, so this is how I communicate with people. I guess I’m just trying to justify the expense.
I don’t spend money on anything else, because I can’t afford to. I haven’t bought new clothes in months, even though I need them. My paychecks are always gone to rent and bills before I even get them. If it weren’t for Brian, I wouldn’t even be able to afford to eat. He has helped me so much, but he is starting to struggle as well. Both of our hours are getting cut at work. I feel like we’re drowning.
I know that things will get better, and I just have to cling to that hope. And as I always say, everything happens for a reason. This has given me a lesson in humility. I hope that someday I’m able to give back to my community. Maybe I won’t have to use the food benefits for very long, but I am definitely grateful for them right now.
Yes kitty. You can have your bed back. As soon as I figure out what to do with all of these extra hangars… How on earth did I acquire so many?? One of the world’s mysteries, I suppose.
P.S. I’m done posting for now. Sorry about the plethora of clothes posts. :)
I also have a dresser full. Maybe I should donate some?
